I have this love-hate relationship with NUSSU.

its gonna be a hate-hate cos the new NUSSU exco is seriously the most irritating, doesnt make sense kinda grp of pple who seriously NEED to get a life.

what i can deduce is that their motto in life is:

what u tink and dunno much abt MUST GO. what incurs cost and THEY tink is useless MUST ALSO GO. wth! they dun even care wat other pple think. wad they care is that IT MUST GO.

no wonder pple hate them so much. i was initially thinking that maybe NUSSU's not so bad afterall but now they give me this s***.

OMG. time past so fast. so many things to do. I really hope this yr i would be able to send clarinda off at the airport before she departs for birmingham. Im just so busy with EVReYTHING. gosh. i wish people would be understanding and coorporate or at least help me. I can't be buried in work ALL THE TIME u noe. i have frens whom i wanna spend more time with,who's leaving for another whole yr and yet all im doing now is A LOT of work which can actually be done by other ppl if they are more willing to help out.

For once, i wish i could just forget everything, and see how others will react in my absence. I could just laugh at all the chaos that would happen if that were true. but just once, i wan them to feel the pain of all the hardwork ive put in.All the difficulties i faced doing it. Maybe THAT would make them work a lil bit harder.

And once again, i apologise to all my frens whom ive not spend enuff time with. Especially clare, cos ive been missing for the recent outings just right b4 her departure. and i tink i kinda broke my promise to bringing her around NUS in august cos i was just too busy with the Union Week mega event. SORRY CLARE!!! will send u more cards to birmingham!><

haiz haiz. hopefully next yr would be better. hopefully, i would not be too busy and would be able to spend more time w my close frens.

And yesterdae was laureen's bdae. im suppose to go for her bdae celebration today, yet i missed it cos im just too busy. Too busy with CCA commitments, projects and studies. sometimes i kinda feel that Singapore is a place where pple are just 'TOO BUSY'. Too stressed out. too competitive.compared to other countries, the stress level here is soo high. i apologise to laureen and my other frens who went for the outing today.

haiz. and i dread going back to my pharmaceutical analysis notes. its just tooo dry and tooo boring to study.

i tink im becoming a depressing person. lol. im always  able to tink positively, but maybe the pressures of studies and school related commitment is driving me nuts.

TML is pharmacostatistics test!!!!! and im still not asleep yet  even thou its going to be 12 midnite soon!!!>< haha..its been a long time ever since i had any test..kinda nervous and trying to SQUEEZE everything into my brain sumore><...

i still haven do dosage form design mcq questions...:(

oh wells..

anyways...my pri sch fren who migrated to new york added me on FB! haha..so nostalgic..i kinda miss pri sch dayz...but the good thing is that fb actually allows me to meet a lot of my pri sch frenz! i even went out for outings w some of them:) hopefully, someone( dun look at me><) could organize a primary school outing...its interesting to see how we all turn out, grown up and all=DDD and im also glad we could also keep in touch w our teachers.. and that they still remember us after so long!

i did contemplate on being a teacher cos i find it interesting if my students grow up and still remebered me... but i guess my passion still lies more in the healthcare arena=)

and i dunno why im still blogging at this hr when i am gonna have a CA test tml>< HAHA..

WISH ME GOOD LUCK y'all!=DDD

I HATE SP. IM EVEN STARTING TO HATE THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE. SP is a &^%@($*^!()$*($!($!!!! WHO THE HELL INVENTED THIS MODULE?!?!

yucks. i hate writing essay...cos basically im bad at it..REALLY BAD. i have problems organizing my thoughts and putting it in proper order. >< WHY OH WHY SP??? WHY IS IT HAUNTING ME????

COS UNTIL NOW I STILL CANNOT WRITE A SINGLE PARA AND IVE BEEN THINKING FOR A WHOLE DAY ALREADY.

i now prefer pharmacostats to SP.

on a lighter note, ive finally get to contact the toa payoh senior citizen's health care centre for my MNO project..hopefully this project will work out=D its just a matter of whether those CERTAIN pple not from pharm in my grp could coorporate..haiz..and i tot biz pple have better organizational skills...mayb its cuz they're yr 1...stilll...they shld just answer my emails u noe...im STILL WAITING FOR A REPLY!

im seriously gonna stop joining any organizational stuff startin from yr 3 onwards...its damn stressful, waste of time and a lot of liasing w pple..and pple, being pple are flawed..always give excuses, giving me problems after problems after problems...haiz,..and i have 4 AD hoc projects to take care of..GOOD LUCK TO ME:(

i wanna see my baby cousin! his presence is kinda therapeutic=DDD

hmmm. the storm is coming.

I NEED A PUNCHBAG.punchbag please.

and...i tink i tink i tink i have a serious anger management problem. cos i tink i keep them inside so much, it'll burst.

so if i look as if im glaring in sch please forgive me. or if u dun like me, its ok. i'll reciprocate that.

ya, im in a nasty nasty nasty moooood. i wanna be mean all of a sudden.

hMMM..MNO project this time seems challenging compared to other sems... haiz..but its meaningful thou. its called the zoe project, whereby we have to make a 10 minute video of how we improved some other pple's lives and how we managed the whole project. i look forward to the video making part, not so to sourcing out of pple to help out cos its not really easy>< hopefully the children home would allow us to videograph the whole process...i tink the thing that makes it difficult is getting consent for the video-ing part..not many pple liked to be video-ed i guess...HAIZ. HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY we can make this project a success and get A+ for MNO:) i really enjoyed the lectures and tutorials thou=))

SP, on the other hand,is such a hassle =.= i dun tink i will need to write any dumb essay anytime in the future:( i HATE HATEHATE writing wordssss. esp those tt have to make sense and flow..sheesh. why make things so difficult man?

Also, i get pissed off a lot nowadays, mayb its stress.BUT i like to blame it on the pple who made me angry thou... pple who ridicule a compliment can make ppl VERY ANGRY too. i dunno why when i call THAT person smart THAT person makes a big deal out of it. and THAT person thinks im oni calling THAT person smart. LIKE hello?! i call almost everyone i noe in UNIVERSITY, SMART. wats wrong? its a compliment. i cant call u stupid, for goodness sake. and i like to say out pple's good pts in front of others.. so smart IS INDEED A GooD POINT. these kind of pple who make a big deal of a COMPLIMENT really pisses me off.

OK...i noe im a very bad blogger. too busy. too stressed up. too everything.

anyways..will promise to update sumore when i have more time..now im doing the stupid pamphlet...have to paraphrase so many things..but im doing abt a topic that i love the most:BABIES!!

yes. im mad abt babies. thanks to my cutest cousin in the whole wide world. Ariffin is his name. he's oni 2 yrs old althou he looks bigger than that.

Just in case some of u wondered( many have asked me the same questions repeatedly). Ariffin's half chinese-portugese half malay. CUTEEE RIGHT?

PS: im super pissed off at prudential cos they really take SO LONG to process my termination letter.  i will never believe private investment companies. they are very unethical. they squeeze EVERYTHING out of u. Well..i learnt my lesson.

IM SHO SAD COS I DIDNT GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO JOIN TOASTMASTERSSSS! =(((

HAIZ...and and and im dead tired from union city 09! but i feel kinda sad when its all over..it was a GREAT SUCCESS!!! WHeee! just wanna apologise if anyone wasnt able to get goodie bags or ice cream during the 3 days...if u wan free ice cream vouchers just ask me cos i got some which i can give =D

haiz..i feel like closing down my blog..i need to really seriously start mugging cos im so busy w union city and hotline stuff>< and im like log tired. to the point i can just lie on the floor and sleep ANYWHERE.

there's still so many things to do..im trying. so if i haven been doing a good job pls tell me...ive come to a point in which im sooo tired that i dun tink im doing anything well..im just floating ard in my tired little world..today's lect, i was half floating in between dreamland and reality...

and ive suddenly out of the blue decided on wat i wanna do in the future...thanks to some push factors which i will not disclose. everytime i do or participate in events or committees, it will always be worth it no matter how hard the work is cos skills gain is good..and portfolio built hopefully not bad.experience too...thats why i still die die will try join toastmasters next year. cos i wanna at least do something i really enjoy...tt is talking. even thou i ALWAYS get stage fright i wanna do public speaking.. ive liked doing it since sec sch...thou i must confess my english is kinda bad..HAHA...

okok..looking at wat i wrote, my SP tutor would definitely mark me down on language and coherence...told u im drifting to and fro from la la land. i hate this sem. it sucks(sorry for cussing but i cant help it right now=.= dun follow me..im a bad role model!) cos of pharmacostats...cos its maths and i HATED maths w all my heart and soul..

And i wanna thank yin shan, mel, br and rui min for making my life in pharm bearable... i tink i kinda complain a lot these days cos im just so tired and irritable and tired and more irritable. thanks for putting up w me=D love u guys!

and..OH yea!

SELAMAT BERPUASA!!! fasting month is here! =DDD

SITI

I dunno if taking an MC position in my cca is a wise decision..i realised its not, cos now my schedule is SUPER PACKED..and i think that pple are always expecting sumting more from me when i really really cannot meet it...i hope they understand tt im a human being not a superwomen so please please please stop giving me so much work to do already! and please stop expecting so much of me..i havent even started my duty as a PE but all the work came piling in, PE unrelated. IM VERY STRESSED! so please assist me in not stressing me further...im so stressed up w worrying abt so many things already its to the point tt it may just kill me.

I will promise to do my PE job to the best i can but all the extra misc jobs please stop giving them to me when they could have been done by other pple..PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE STOP GIVING ME UNNECCESSARY WORK!

i really wanna focus on union week cos i signed up for it way earlier than for PE..SO PLEASE LET ME FOCUS ON TT FIRST! as ive told them during the interview tt im already committed to union week. PLEASE STOP KILLING ME with SO MUCH STRESS ALREADY!

I cannot believe this..but i fell in love...

NAKAyama Yuma

AND he is oni 16 yrs old=.= how come youngsters nowadays look so old?!?

and i tink i like him for the wrong reasons: bcos he acted as a VAMPIRE..HAHA..i have always liked weird creatures...even twilight!=DDD

oh wells...this 'crush' will definitely pass...i still love ANIME CHARACTERS!=DDD but go watch his drama called KOISHITE AKUMA. so romantic!